I can honestly say there’s nothing more amazing than feeling your little one kicking and wriggling around inside your tummy. I’m definitely going to miss it after giving birth. It’s such a pleasant reminder that you’re bringing life into the world and that you are in fact already a mother. The more I feel her kick the more i understand how people say you bond with your baby before they’re even born.
I have been easing off my antidepressants the past month and it’s been so difficult. I stopped my anxiety pills the minute I found out I was pregnant as I did some research and they recommend you don’t take them whilst expecting. That was hard enough. But I thought I was ready to come off my antidepressants so with consent from my doctor I bought myself down from 150mg to 50mg. But I’m having to go up to 100mg again as I definitely was not ready. It’s been tough but I’m a lot better on the pills than off them. So that kinda rules out breast feeding now!
I’m not very open about my ‘mental health’ issues. and I hate even saying those words. But if I’m going to carry on doing this lil blog then I want to be as open as I can and just write til my hearts content because even if nothing makes sense and no-one ever reads this blog it just really helps letting everything out. Having severe anxiety and moderately severe depression is hard enough whilst not being pregnant. But with close family and a wonderful boyfriend I definitely consider myself lucky. They help me every single day and put up with my horrible mood swings and I never show them how thankful I am. I’m not a very expressive person when it comes to family. and recently I’ve been such a horrible person. But I’m incredibly grateful and lucky to have all this support around me. and I know little Daisy is going to bought into the world surrounded by so much love!